lying

when i say i don't
i think i might do
is not that i'm lying
but i didn't know the truth

when i look outside the window
life become a steady dead picture
when i look at our album
the pictures become alive

i'm not smiling
neither am i crying
when my heart feel a pitch of pain
my mind is still deciding

fighting or letting go
the process still feel so slow
watching the once bloomed flowers
fall on the river surface and went with the flow

When silent is killing me softly
did anger consume your love?
Did you feel any bit of irritation
if yes both of us lose

I'm the one alone
hence i'm the one feeling the lost
it prove to me that i always right all along
In relationship, i never gotten strong.

still hesitating when i know that this blog is already announced dead
"The minute people fall in love, they become liars"---Harlan Ellison
I was born to lie