i need to

i should have done this when we are still close
i should have done this when our bond is at the peak

one cut is all it take to collide
like an avalanche, i never can imagine it being rebuild
when you look at me
will it trigger that hatred
would it be better to hide from you whenever i can?

i lost my sleep for few nights
and i know it serves me right
is all just a phone call away
what standing between is my fear

you couldn't have love me better
matter of fact you are the one that never cut me
sitting here thinking of what i done
i never know better
i'm not good as a friend or what so ever

i guess i'm selfish all along
taking granted for what i hold on
never know when i let go
it slips like it should and is told

is a tribute that i never dare to admit
till now i whether should i write your name
forgive me for having less faith
i never have confident in my existence

all i know is,
i told you are an angel before
and i'm sorry
from the core
i don't know what is all this for
love...is always like a battlefield
and..i guess is worth a fight
and a scar
sorry