dark blue

haha....
is becoming an emo blog adi...

my emotion is going quite crazy lately..not bcos of PMS:p

today...is not my lucky day
everytg i do doesn"t turn out right
and these alot of thing i couldn't manage to do
feeling blue
feeling lonely...

i"m really too spoilt...
couldn't get use to being alone...
especially bad hair days like today

is not bcos i will think of you all when i'm feeling lonely
is bcos of thinking of you all..i feel extremely lonely..
thx for all the love and care!
i will tryto turn it into a motivation to live on
and noises of memory to fill the silent moments:)

....i thought i'll be able to go genting n see the sun rise right now...
i think i kena ffk...
sad...
reli today is not my day..

that's all

i wanna admit it
cos it will be easier to forget

i couldn't
cos totally don't have the rights to

what can i do?
let time waste it away
now i'm just baring..waiting

lei le

bu xue yao li you de
xin yi jing teng le
xiang shuo de, mei mo le
mei shen me zhi bu zhi de

bu neng xie de
bu neng dong de
yan lei liu le
wo que bu cheng ren wo ku le

voices

it can't hidden it can't be held back
what i want is not a fall
but is just right
as a way out
i won't regret
but it still hurt
pleasure existed
where pain is inevitable

i saw a wishing star
i wonder so hard what i'm trying to pray for
it is for it to get easier?
or is it for it to never fade away
yet again
for pleasure or for pain?
the later seems harder to obtain

what makes me grip harder
what makes me stronger?
is it to let go or to grip even harder
if time can heal, should i flow with it
or should i kept walking but still kept waiting

eyes doesn't meet the mind
mind doesn't meet the heart
the eyes..revealing everything from the heart
the mind...kept myself away from others stare
pathetically precious
the moment stops while time is going
i am who i am now
walking in circle in a larger scale
this was what i wish for once
is also what i grief for now
i won't change my initial determination
cause even if i do
i won't
face back
walk away

so i wish from the wishing star
throw me away
or make me stronger
cos i need more strength
to grip
and to let go